Your duty is to sanctify yourself. Yes, even you. Who thinks that this task is only for priests and religious? To everyone, without exception, our Lord said: Be ye perfect, as my heavenly Father is perfect. St. Josemaria

Friday, June 1, 2012

Lost in ....

I feel lost. Its simple. Nothing to it.  But life is going on. It has to. There is a house to buy. Miles and Miles away.  Children to take care of, to feed, to read, to love.  Our House is sold. I look around and I don't see things, I see my life in this house for last almost 4 years. I see my friends' smiles, drinks.. plenty of drinks on our bar on "Happy Hour" (more like hours and hours). I see girls in pretty dress drinking their tea. Boys running with bats and sticks. I feel the aches of all the soccer games against kids that made me feel like a kid again. I hear the trees move and my waking bird singing my tune. I feel the sun on face as I sit and sit on my private deck.. feeling lost.  If I only had one more day with my little guy... Just one day so that I can feel him kick and move and know that it will be ok.  It will be ok. For I have a great thing that may don't have.. I have HOPE . I feel lost but lost in aw as He loves me so , for He gave us HOPE, for He gave us LIFE once more!

2 comments:

Gardenia said...

praying for you. ((hugs))

noreen said...

Hi Cecilia, I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers! Hang on to your HOPE and your faith and it will get you through these hard times.