This basal thermometer is what I call my Foe within a Friend. Post warning: brutal honesty! About two weeks ago, we thought, this is it.. the temperatures goes up and I mean up. Finally after 3 years... what I thought was my answer to my prayers were coming true. Day one up, day two, etc.. Day 12 comes and its very up and that is usually my day that it drops and my dear friend is visiting again! Day 13 up again..
This is where my mind runs away.. I start planning in my head, due date, sex of the baby, how it will be to feel him or her move inside of me, to breastfeed again. The pure joy of having another child..
Day 14... the drop of the ball!! Yes, my friend, temp drops as if it was jumping of the golden bridge! Down it goes... as well as my heart!
The thing about NFP and charting.. you have too much information too soon. If I didn't chart, if I didn't take my temps., I wouldn't know the unknown.. makes no sense right.
But I think of again, what I do know that is sure. My four beauties.. My four corners of my heart, my children.
To fully trust in the Lord in all matters is what I think is the hardest thing in the world. Yet, I look into Our Blessed Lady's eye and She shows me the way, especially in this month of May!